After a week of being home, with things to do and people to see, I'm caught up on my sleep and enjoying myself. However, some things not quite right. I love seeing family and friends, even though I worried about things being awkward between us, it has been natural as ever. It is really great but I have this growing unease at being back. I have been warned by several different people that it is hard to come back and of course I didn't really believe them but now I think I am beginning to understand. Its not easy coming back and even harder staying. I love these people dearly and whole heartedly but I find myself torn between my new life and my past. It is a strange state of being! Life is complicated, that is a fact. At the beginning of this journey I made a promise to myself to learn something new each and everyday. At the moment it feels like I'm learning a lot more!
Christmas has passed by, I've seen friends and family and now what? I feel like I'm waiting for a train that will inevitably come to whisk me away, maybe its delayed by the snow!
Ok, enough philosophical pondering!
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